Renewed (for now).

It's January 2 and I'm blogging. I've decided to renew the blog for the time being. I was just surfing the web when a friend linked me up to blog that somehow, in a single paragraph, changed my current outlook on life. I think blogging is worthwhile.

From RiceDaddies.blogspot.com, this is the paragraph:

It wasn't until I was in college and away from home for the first time that I would unbind myself. With my regained freedom I forsook my math and business classes for poetry and film making courses. I exploded cognitively and socially. At times, it seemed I would never get myself together again. But I did eventually.

There is nothing particularly special here, except that I've spent my days lately feeling like I may never get myself together again. I need to stop feeling like I've messed up my life and see right now as a period of change that I'll eventually come out of. I need to keep the faith in this regard.

I also need to remember that I have nothing to prove to anyone in particular. I will pursue those things that make me happy and that I feel are authentic outlets for myself, and if they don't work out then I will have to sit down with some help and restrategize. But at the moment I need to trust myself, life, and the process I'm going through. I also need to remember that the person with whom I'm spending the most time these days is the most organized human being on the planet and not indicative, necessarily, of the world at large, or of the standard to which I should hold myself.

I also need to remember that I must have done something right in life. On New Year's Eve, I spent time with people I like a whole lot. It's not easy to find people like that who will put up with you for many years and on NYE. So I must have done something right up until this point.